First and foremost, I’ve mentioned that I will not do a recap of this episode, but more of a discussion recap. In simple terms, I would just briefly talk about some scenes in the drama, and focus more on the characters and analyse the characters and the direction the drama is moving towards.
I have a lot of love for this drama because it makes me think a lot, and all of the characters have depth to them which makes it interesting to watch.
I’m not sure how the drama will turn out in the end, whether the married couples would remain married or whether they will move on and live separately. I don’t mind either endings – because I think both ways will work, but I just don’t want Jae Hak and Eun Jin to be together. It just seems morally wrong for them to end up together. Well, that’s just my opinion. I’m not sure if Min Soo & Eun Young will end up together. I am hoping they will, but for them to marry, both Eun Jin and Mi Kyung have to be okay with it – and honestly, I don’t think Mi Kyung can ever forgive Eun Jin. She can choose to let go of the hatred, but forgiving is a different thing.
The characters in the drama might hate her, her actions, her obsessiveness – but I think the person who hates her the most is actually herself. I think people are usually self-aware, and when we do things, we usually reflect on our own actions. Sometimes what we intend to do, and what we actually do is the complete opposite, and we can’t help it.
Mi Kyung loves Jae Hak – but what is it that she wants? She wants Jae Hak’s attention, concern & a sense of security that he loves her. She wants Jae Hak to know what she wants without her telling him, and this is a very common trait amongst women. This is why they always say understanding women is impossible. Jae Hak is constantly frustrated, because he doesn’t understand her fears or her insecurity.
Mi Kyung is irritated at Jae Hak, who doesn’t seem to be affected by the fact that she found out about his affair. To her, he seems indifferent and confident that she will not walk out from the relationship. He doesn’t seem to have the fear of her actually leaving him – which is kind of hurtful to any women. He sleeps well, and his work is not affected and he is calm and rational – she is annoyed at all these, because these very traits makes her feel small and insecure, as though she is not important to him.
Thus, even though she doesn’t want to disregard herself, she continues her mood swings and gets revenge with Jae Hak. However, in the process, she is actually destroying herself and it is more disadvantageous to her than him, because she knows well enough that she has become a scary person, doing all sorts of things and she hates herself for doing so. She hates the fact that she can’t let him go, she hates the fact that she can’t stop her love for him, she hates herself for clinging and staying with him despite being disgusted by his actions. It’s a complex emotion.
For her character itself, I wish she slowly learns to love herself and makes herself a priority and that even by herself, she can be happy. That even though she couldn’t have a perfect family, she could still be happy and happiness comes from within. No one can give her happiness, but herself. Before the affair, she had the ‘perfect’ family but she wasn’t necessarily happy.
It was more of security – the feeling that everything is complete and perfect. But she needs to know that there is no such thing as perfection. She may end up being divorced, but maybe she’ll find something she love and live her life happily and understand that imperfection is beauty.
Now let’s talk about Jae Hak. I find his character frustrating. Don’t misunderstand, I like the character, what I find frustrating is the character’s personality. Jae Hak is like some guys – really bad at understanding women. I don’t know what he thinks of love, or whether he even loves Mi Kyung. If he was warm towards Eun Jin, it can only mean that he didn’t love Mi Kyung at all. What is it that he feels towards Mi Kyung then? Affection? Respect? I think that is the most unclear answer right now – because I really don’t know what his character is feeling towards Mi Kyung.
Now, let’s talk about Eun Jin. Eun Jin is probably at her lowest, because everyone is judging her & she lost her friends. In simple terms, she’s in the process of losing everything. After an affair, we know that there is no one who is going to support you. By having an affair, you are hurting everyone else and no one can actually accept it. Not everyone will hate you, but even if they don’t hate you or curse you, they will never be able to accept the affair with a cool mind – because it is just morally wrong. Well, to me that is.
Eun Jin’s mom can’t understand the affair, but she can’t hate on her own child. As a woman herself, she cannot accept the affair and the excuses but as a mother, she cannot do nothing about her daughter. Yoon Jung is still a young kid, and she is still unaware of the fact. However, when she finds out, Eun Jin will probably lose Yoon Jung’s respect as well.
The pain and hurt any parent inflict on their children, doesn’t go by easily. I think no child would forget a pain inflicted by parents. It’s a scar for life – and we see both Mi Kyung and Min Soo who is the perfect example. They can choose to live a normal life, but that pain will somehow influence their lives or way of living in one way or another.
In Episode 9, Eun Jin mentioned that there is no manual on Na Eun Jin, and that there is no such thing as Na Eun Jin wouldn’t do such a thing. Most of the time, we wouldn’t know how we would be in the future, we can’t guarantee anything. Eun Jin probably never expected herself to have an affair, but things just happen. I’m not sure if Eun Jin really loved Jae Hak, but I hope it’s not love.
It’s understandable that she wavered (that doesn’t mean it’s okay), because she was probably feeling drained out from her marriage, and when Jae Hak appeared, it seems like she felt warm and she was happy. It might be because of Sung Soo’s lack of affection, which happens when you’re married for years and stop living like a couple. It might be a temporary affection, and I’m hoping it is.
As for Sung Soo, he’s battling with himself. His pride and his love for Eun Jin. He loves Eun Jin a lot, but he can’t ignore the affair and he still can’t forgive her. He wants to stay married with her, but he don’t know how to – because he can’t pretend it never happened and live happily, and he is not prepared to forgive her. He finds an excuse that he’s going to make them live in ‘hell’ together to get back at her – but he can’t do that either, because he’s wavering as he feels guilty as well since he had an affair too. He hates the fact that she betrayed him, but he loves her too much to hurt her. Eventually, he makes a decision to divorce her.
The problem with this couple is that they never recovered from Sung Soo’s affair. That first affair made a huge impact on their marriage, and they continued living together without addressing the issues properly. In addition, they slowly drifted apart like some married couples. That’s why we hear advises like you have to constantly communicate and shower love with your spouse, and ‘date’ with your spouse once in a while to keep the relationship and love alive. You need to put effort in anything to make it work, including relationships.
Min Soo and Eun Young are progressing well, and I really can’t prepare myself for the heartbreak waiting for them. Mi Kyung is fond of Eun Young, but once she finds out she is Eun Jin’s sister, she would not accept Eun Young easily. Min Soo will also not be able to accept Eun Young easily because he loves Mi Kyung a lot, and he hates it when she is hurt. He’s probably going to suffer between his love for Mi Kyung and Eun Young.
I think it might be possible for Mi Kyung to accept Eun Young, but only after Mi Kyung has really let her hatred go and moved on. I don’t think she can forgive Eun Jin, but I believe she can let go of her hatred and desire for revenge. She loves Min Soo a lot, and she likewise, wouldn’t want Min Soo to be hurt too.
I’m just a little afraid that this drama will go in a direction that makes Mi Kyung go over the edge and hate on Min Soo. I mean, if she becomes mentally unstable and remembers the fact that his mother caused her family to fall apart, she might hate on him. Please drama, don’t do that. I love their siblings love and support for each other. Let’s not go makjang.
Lastly, I’m not sure if the next episode will have a time jump, because from the preview, it looked like both married couples are trying to live together again. Sung Soo asked for a divorce in this episode, so the preview looked a little odd. We’ll find out on Monday~